Never happy
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It started at the loss of my friend.. soon isolating myself.. when I suffocated, I found a friend in alcohol and drugs.. What a saviour. I found an escape from the pain.. Night and day till I was slaving to toxicity .. I could not live a day without it.. and lost self control of myself.. It was as if drugs were demanding me to take it.. and so I did.. Obeyed my desires.. I laid in bed late at night.. Only to wonder why I existed if I was never happy.. what was purpose of life.. Reason to be alive.. Most people do not know...
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