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WARNING:::::::: About Depression and things, but there is a silver lining




Jump, skip, step, fall. There are a million ways to do it; I just needed to pick one. But I couldnt, its not that simple, I couldn't pick. I couldn't. Why? I don't know. You'd think it would be straight forward, wouldn't you? Pick a way that suits your mood? Well I'm depressed, and I didn't know if I wanted to live. Now you're asking, how can you not know if you want to live or not, isn't it obvious? No. Its not. I wanted to live, but not like the way I was then. 

Maybe I should formally introduce myself. Hi, I'm Imogen (people call me Immy), I'm 17 and I'm in my 1st year of college, and I can't remember the last time I was genuinely happy. I have friends, sort of, they're not the kind of people I'd trust my life with, but they' there... sometimes. My family isn't all that bad either. Mum and dad are still together and I have an older sister. It's not a fully functional family, but then again, whose is? My point is, I don't know why I feel like this, I don't really have a good reason. 

My school referred my to a 'specialist'. I don't know whats special about them though. The 'specialists' gave up and sent me to a residential centre for "people like me". Basically a social experiment to see if they put all the kids with social anxiety in a room together, they'd be fixed. Needless to say, it didn't work, we're all still confused as to how staying at Ploegman is going to help. (Ploegman is the name of the centre, they call it a centre, its more like a prison. We aren't allowed to go out of the building and we cant listen to music or watch youtube. I don't think i'll last here long, but still, its two weeks off school so who cares?All Rights Reserved

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"Treasure what're you doing awake by this time". I heard my mum voice trailing behind. I shivered,I knew perfectly the rules of not being awake by this time. I would only get scolded at and maybe my phone seized. But it's not really my fault for wanting a distraction from my messy life. I just couldn't take it anymore,I was tired of thinking of my life I was tired of blaming God for the circumstances before me. Sometimes I feel like a burden and sometimes I wished I was never born. Life is cruel and learning from you mistakes doesn't count anymore. I have been told about how things would be fine by my mates. Encouraging words to keep me going, but it's simply not working. I would have committed suicide but I don't want to put my mum through that pain. She is my most favorite person in the universe. "Tress I'm talking to you. What are you doing awake?" I could feel my mum presence right behind me and dare not move. "Mum I just woke up and was just scrolling through Facebook sorry". I said after waking up from my trance. "You know the rules,no phones at night. Don't make me believe you have a boyfriend. Goodnight and put off that phone. Mum loves you. Goodnight Tress". "Goodnight Mum,sorry for breaking the rules. It won't happen again. I love you too". I smiled at her and watched her leave. I was actually texting my boyfriend.. Thank goodness he didn't call tho. That was really close, didn't want my mum to worry about me....