Loosing myself
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Last published Fri, May 30, 2025
I cant believe its happening, it's finally happening. I'm leaving, for good.
I stood in the parking lot with my bags at my feet and an umbrella over my head. It was raining heavily and the wind was blowing at full force. I was freezing cold when he came, he was late but I didn't mind,I was just happy to be out of that horrid place. He pulled up in front of me and rolled down the window, "Hi." I greeted. He leaned over the passenger seat and said " Hi, are you Penelope? Im supposed to pick her up." " Yeah that's me" I replied getting into the car "Then you must be Evan" Why did i say that? I sounded so stupid. Thats it hes gonna think im stupid and we're not gonna have a good brother-sister bond and i just ruined everything. I always ruin everything god I'm so- I started thinking when Even cut me off "Yep" he said popping the 'p' "So how's life?" That's a terrible way to start a conversation "Yeah I know but it was worth a try, am i right?" he said " Did I say that out loud? That's so embarrassing" I wined
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