I Wish I Never Did It

Your lying down in the bathtub thinking 'should I'. Then being almost completely about to over doze you see crazy things. Lets so say god. God came down and talked to you. He asks you do you really want to do this. You say that you can't up with the pain anymore. He says so thats a yes as you shake your head slowly. He says ok then as he vanishes. You do it. You cut down into your thigh, deep. The pain it hurts, but if you scream someone will come. So you cry, you turn on the water to make the sound quieter. Its not working, you begin to wonder if you should actually die. Maybe, naw it's not true. No one cares about you enough to love you. Your own parents can't even see it,the pain.you sometimes wish that there was that one person who could see into your eyes and see the sorrow. Ending your thoughts like that.