We are chaos
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Ongoing5m
Last published Thu, May 8, 2025
"What about life right now? Why can't you live life to it's fullest now? You never know what comes after. What if its darkness? Nothingness. What if its light. What if its water. Clouds. Fire. Or even just rebirth?" He says calmly
"Well- we just have to believe. I love God and where my life will be" I say not really listening
"What does being gay have to do with going to heaven or hell?" He says
"If your gay you can't get into heaven. Along with all the other sins. Unless of course you repent." I shrug
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ill post maybe once a week depending on if i have enough done. I have about 9 right now... maybe every Thursday? (ignore the fact I posted this at 11 o clock on Wednesday)
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