Stayed down

Where can I start ,about this story , I've been fucking with this nigga since 7th grade fucking him since 10th grade and loving him since forever. We started off as a secret and now I'm stuck loving him and and being his down ass bitch we never been in a relationship but what we got was more than a relationship could be most people would say I was a side bitch but nah I never was, I just was a never leave your side bitch see you have to have a strong mind when you fucking with a street nigga when me and Joseph met I was in a relationship with this nigga name Keem he was the first boy I ever had sex with and at t he time he was doing me wrong. Joseph and I met. Ever since we starting talking we never stop talking.