Times I Hated Myself
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Last published Mon, May 12, 2025
This story is a collection of every moment when I doubted myself, felt lost, or broke down. It's for anyone who's been there-especially teenagers battling the same inner turmoil. It's not just a way to help them feel less alone, but also my way of confiding my darkest thoughts. You're not the only one. And neither am I.
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