✗ | 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝒂 𝒃𝒐𝒚, 𝗹𝗶𝘃 𝗿𝗼𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘆

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To my dearest Olivia,

In the beginning it had been Maddie. With her competive nature and loud confidence she had caught my attention from the start.

Being the only (open) lesbian in a small-town high school had been more difficult than I imagined it would be.
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The guidance councillor, your mom, changed my life. Not with just what she said to me or how she managed to get me into the soccor team to "find an outlet for my anger", but because she bought her children into my life.

It had been Joey who your mom had convinced to talk to me, and while it had been awkward in the beginning and I was such a bitch to him, he never gave up trying to be my friend.
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Joey was and still is my lighthouse, guiding me back to shore when I get lost in the darkness and depths of my self hatred.

Maddie was the life guard who pulled me out from the cold, rough, waves, making sure I didn't sink in my own dispare, warming up my hypothermic heart.

Then I met you...

You came spiralling into my life like a tornado of beautiful chaos with self assurance and confidence I could only dream of.

While Joey and Maddie saved me from my despair and anguish, you make me feel alive. Shocking my heart into overdrive everytime I see you.
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I don't think I was ever in love with Maddie, not how I thought I had been. I think I was in love with the idea of her, but not actually her... you know?

I don't know when I fell for you instead, but I did.

It may not have always been you Liv, but I want it to be only you. now that I've met you, I don't think I can ever let go.
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I really like you Olivia Rooney.

And while I'm not a boy, (it's times like these when i really wish i was) I really hope you could like me back.

xoxo
-Birdie

(full email is in the extended description)
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season 1 - ongoing | liv rooney x fem!oc
( liv and maddie )