Help me feel, again.
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Last published Sun, May 10, 2015
K . L Toth once said; "One of the greatest tragedies in life is to lose your own sense of self and accept the version of you that is expected by everyone else." Nobody ever expected this quote to be understood by the happy-go-lucky lead singer of a wildly popular band, Panic! At The Disco. Self acceptance and happiness has always been a massive struggle for Brendon Urie... but, he continues to hide his feelings for the sake of the band's reputation and to keep his current relationships stable and un-phased by on-going depression.
While leading a tragic unhealthy lifestyle, Brendon starts to communicate with fellow band member Dallon Weekes. Opening up is such a new feeling and he starts to feel comfortable and safe around the tall bass player. Feelings unwind and take an unlikely turn, and life as the two men knew has been altered by romantic feelings for one another.
How will they manage this? Would they risk it all and jeopardize their career, lifestyle, and the friendship that they originally had? Or will they just continue on as if they never felt something more?
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