I'm Being Held At Gunpoint To Write This Journal
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Last published Sat, May 17, 2025
All Henry Lockwood wanted to do was play in a band and have fun doing it.
He didn't want money. He didn't want to go on any world tours. And he certainly didn't want to become famous overnight.
Unfortunately, you can't always get what you want.
Now he's spending all his time in a tour bus and trying to keep it together - but that's hard to do when you're worried about outrunning Eastern Domain officials, putting on a brave facade for millions of screaming fans, and your mother is dying from a mysterious illness.
I'm Being Held At Gunpoint To Write This Journal is a surrealist, slightly dystopian look at fame, grief, politics, self-harm, and emotional repression - all through the clever disguise of a completely normal, totally boring journal.
Kinney meets Orwell meets The Beatles in this chaotic, snarky exploration of what happens when the spotlight burns brighter than the truth.
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I'M AN AMERICAN so if i fucked up on the uk english please let me know asap !!!
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