I wake up. "Another day of misery, huh." I tell myself. It's been 3 years without you. Many things have changed. The environment changed. People changed. I get up and make myself breakfast. "Why do things have to be this way?" It answers. "Well, you have caused this situation." It's raspy voice says. I sigh. I eat my cereal, wash my bowl and get changed. "Hey it's a nice day huh?" "Yeah, maybe we should go for a walk." It says. I put on my shoes and walk outside. I live alone in a small house. I walk outside, with It on my side. I put a cigarette in my mouth and light it. As I walk and scroll through Facebook, I see a 'Don't Smoke Ad' Heh.
I go back inside my home. It's nice and comfy, a house with 2 bedrooms, 2 bath. Large kitchen and living room. It really likes it here. Not many people know of the place I live in, since it's far from society. It asks me "Hey, what are you planning to make for lunch?" I laugh "You're always hungry. It's annoying."
It's lonely here without you.
All I want is to be alone. I wish that no one existed. My name is Zeina. I don't talk much. Not at all actually. Well not really. I sign or write things down in my notebook. I can speak. But I really only speak to those I trust. Today I'm gonna die. Don't feel bad for me, I am choosing my fate after all. Im tired of living. It's exhausting really living up to your own expectations and the expectations of others. I'm sick of shaving every inch of my limbs, plucking my eye brows, doing my hair, getting dress. Honestly I'm sick of people. My hair is long and dark brown with blonde in it. I have bangs that hang over my face and ever so slightly across my eyes. I don't have friends. My family sucks. So if you're reading this I have a question for you. Are you an outcast too. Everyday I come home from school, take sleeping pills, and go to sleep. Now I just want to sleep. Infinitely.
(A/N I'm currently editing this!)