Catharsis Paradox. by ROSL
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Last published Mon, May 26, 2025
As a girl who's extremely committed to what they're doing, I'm glad to present my first completed book to myself as a gratitude to all the self harm, insecurities and self doubt I've had for myself mostly caused by overthinking. Us, everyone should know valuing yourself is the best gift you can ever give yourself even if you're just existing; nothing else. Being you is quite enough. I know you're struggling darling and it's okay to struggle. In that case if you're not struggling right now, put your finger right above your nose, check if you're breathing .. So if you are, this is my gift for you, just for surviving this long.
Also i haven't still decided an ending nor the start for this but saying all this felt important because you are worth writing for and nobody would say otherwise. - Wednesday 1st January 2025
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