Smiley Pants - A One Direction Fanfic

“There is not one day that goes by when I don’t think of you. I know you had your reasons for leaving us but to tell the truth, I really wish you hadn’t.
Because you know what, I'm not doing well, life is actually pretty shit.
And look at me, I have gone this whole page without using the 'L' word once so far, but looking at it objectively, realistically; I'd say that I still love you.
And I'm kind of afraid I won't ever really stop, loving you. I hope they're treating you well up there because I miss you more than ever.”