Bittersweet lgbtq bxb bl

A boy recalling both the bitter and sweet moments of his life.
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Neil Dolice is a boy who never wondered about anything.

He never questioned his perfectly crafted life, nor the people around it.

But over time, he begins to feel as though something is wrong. In both himself and the world he inhabits. He suddenly realizes he feels as though he's tipping over the edge of the world with nothing to secure him.

It's then that he's left to wonder: "Is there something wrong with the world or with me?"

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I should say something. Acknowledge him in some way. But my lips stay frozen and my bones brittle. The cold of the water must have taken its toil because now I find I'm unable to move.

The silence should feel overwhelming but it doesn't. Because somewhere in the silence I like to imagine Erin's heartbeat and how if I just listen well enough then perhaps I'll hear it. But all I hear is the grave, hallowed sound of his breath.