How my life changed

My Father was abusive. My mother left . I get bullied at school. I have no life. I tried commiting three times in high school but I stopped myself every time saying once I get to college it will get better but it doesn't until I meet this guy Sal who becomes my first best friend. I started getting then one day I went down hill again then I meant Theodore.

Warning there is is self harm, suicide , and sexual abuse and just regular abuse