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An origin story about Ivan, a young 12 year old that through the years, deals with loss, love, and eventually, commits suicide. To console Ivan, two beings from his mind take his conciousness into his mind, and they are driving factors to Ivan's suicide. This book contains 22 chapters, 8 parts, and 30000 words (excluding author's note). I had so much fun writing this book, and I hope you have fun reading this book as well. This book is deeply introspective and deals a lot with mental health, which is another reason I wanted to write it. To anyone struggling with mental health, know that you are not alone. You have someone to talk to. You may feel sad or angry, but know that you have someone, somewhere. Thank you.
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𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐭𝐨𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐰. 𝐈 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐞. 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐳𝐞 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬. 𝐀𝐤𝐚𝐥𝐚 𝐤𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐤𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐠 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐠𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐣𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭 𝐚 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐤 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐔𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐮𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐢𝐭. 𝐌𝐲 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡. 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐝. 𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐚𝐲. 𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐈'𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐰. 𝐆𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐭. 𝐈 𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐞. 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫! 𝐈 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝'𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐞
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