"Do I really deserve to be happy?" After everything that Chris has been through, he can't help but wonder if he deserves anything else but the pain and sadness he regularly endures. He has learned to accept what his life has come to, and to relish in the little happiness he is allowed. But can a newcomer show him that life can always change, that people can always heal, or will Chris be swallowed and drowned in his pit of despair. WARNING: BoyxBoy, minor triggering moments, please enjoy