To Be Unmade
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Last published Mon, May 26, 2025
Sometimes we don't get to choose what kind of monsters we become.
Rain. Blood. Regret. Rinse and repeat.
I was trained to be S.H.A.D.O.W.'s (Subversive Human Advancement Division for Organized Warfare) favorite monster. Silent, Deadly, and 100% Emotionally unavailable. But ever since I ghosted their little lab experiment support group, I've been doing my own thing: freelance missions, stylish murder, and collecting trauma like Pokémon cards.
Then... he showed up.
Bucky Barnes. Yes, that Bucky Barnes. The man, the myth, the metal-armed menace who's supposed to be reformed but looks at me like he's trying to remember something. Something important. Something dangerous.
This was supposed to be a simple mission. Infiltrate. Observe. Don't flirt with the ex-Winter Soldier.
Oops.
Now there's a body on the floor that wasn't mine, an entire team of NEW Avengers crashing through the walls, and a very real chance I'm either about to be arrested, killed, or emotionally compromised.
Again.
~
A slow-burn, Enemies-to-Lovers Bucky Barnes x OC story full of banter, blackout missions, morally gray decisions, and the occasional flirtatious headbutt!
I really hope you enjoy!
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