My life in 2000 characters.

Its a smile that can create a lifetime friendship. Its a word that can end a fight. But its one person who can ruin your life. My life as a child was pretty simple. Till the day i reached middle school, things changed. My personality, My body, but most importantly, my friends. I'm not even sure if i should call them 'friends.' It all started when I got bullied in 7th grade. Your probably wondering right now, Luna, everyone gets bullied. Yes, I know, more then 95% of students deal with bullying. Now everyone had there own solution. Some told a trusted adult, some just simply ignored which was the hardest thing to do. But the way i dealed with it is the internet. Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, YouTube etc.. I got obsessed with it. Its a place where i felt comfortable because people like me were everywhere. But what i didn't know is that its the place where your life begins and where it ends. All these posts tortured me. They were just so happy. Its everything I wanted in my life that i couldn't get. Pictures of girls dying there hair, people out shopping, friends meeting. Things i couldn't have. Everyday, my anger builds up and there were many ways to release my anger. One of them included me torching people lives and making them feel empathy. Made me feel like I am a bully. But I'm a different person inside. I don't like seeing people in pain. At the same time I do. So i go for plan 2. Hurting my self. It helps so much. The pain of your scars seem to hurt more then the pain in your mind even though its not. Because of social media, I lost so many things. I lost my dog because of social media, my grades went down because of social media, I got accepted to the worse high school because of social media. If i continue to do what I'm doing now, I don't even wanna know where i will be. My life would be over. No I don't want to take a break because these breaks never work out, they always lead me back. Its time for me to try again. I don't no if it will work. I'm sorry.