Weakness Comes Strength

"why do I have this feeling inside me that I just want to cry all the time?? Before I couldn't cry no matter how much I wanted to but now if I hear or see something sad or meaningful it triggers something inside me. I don't get it before I felt strong because I wouldn't cry but know I feel weak every time I cry. I don't get it"

"Because you can actually feel now before you would block out every thing and anything that would remind you of your past. Before you built up walls and tried anything you could so that no one would break it down and see your pain. That's also the reason you never healed, you have to break down the walls and let every thing in and work yourself out of
the darkness of the tunnel. Also it's okay not to be okay."