Better To Of Loved and Lost Then to Never of Loved at All

I lost 2 close friends today. I believe that they were "friends" with me. But I was wrong. Deep down inside. They all hated me. No one wants to be around me. I feel lonely losing one I knew for 8.5 years. And I feel lost losing a friend who I knew for 2 years. I had become close a few times with them. But they knew they hated me. I still have my one true friend who doesn't hate me deep deep down in her sole. I'm not lost or anything. I feel bad about what ever I did to lose them and want to fix it ASAP. If they let me talk to them. Goodbye forever!;(