She Was Only Thirteen
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What happens when you forget yourself for a moment?
They say if lies didn't exist, truth wouldn't be so precious.
The dumbest thing I ever said was,
"I can't wait to grow up, to be my own person."
But I belonged to everyone-except myself.
I'm nineteen now.
Am I living life, or just surviving it?
This time, I've given my life over to the little miracle I gave birth to.
I write so I don't forget myself.
I stay silent so that everyone hears me-just so I won't forget, even for a moment.
This isn't just a book.
This is a story.
My story.
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