philematophobia
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Last published Sun, Jun 22, 2025
Have you heard of "philematophobia", for those of you that haven't it is the fear of kissing and yes sadly I have it. It started when I was five, I don't even remember how I got it, but blah.....blah......blah I have it now and that little fear caused a huge change in my life a change that was for someone special and maybe a little wierd like me 🙂
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