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Once I Stopped Climbing

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competitive emotional esports gaming healing informative mentalhealth selfdiscovery toxic toxicrelationships valorant

At what point does passion turn into self destruction?

In this personal reflection, I'll share my journey with competitive gaming, and the emotional cost of chasing perfection. What began as a love for a game morphed into an all-consuming cycle of validation, self-hatred, and identity loss.

This isn't just a story about leaving a game behind. It's about recognizing when something once meaningful starts to hurt you, and finding the courage to step away, whether it's a toxic routine, relationship, or mindset.

It's about healing. Rebuilding. And choosing peace over performance.

Content warnings: mental health struggles, gaming addiction, emotional distress.All Rights Reserved

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Let's Do Better Ghouls!

Hello, my precious humans! I will like to share my experiences about my personal growth and what I have to learn from my past. This will talk about breaking the cycles of unhealthy behaviors, accountability, healing, boundaries, families, parenting, relationships, and friendships. I will be sharing short stories as well. I do human coaching. I am not a licensed therapist. Those are advices and opinion based that are put in perspectives to help others learn from their mistakes and help understand others past experience. Those writings are going to be very blunt and truthful. I do not sugar coat anything. It's your decision if you want to take it or leave it. That is up to you. Enjoy reading! Stay healthy and drink water!