Trapped in feelings

Harumi jade finds herself completely lost after the merge
she doesnt remember anything except the name jade and Rumi the result of the time skip of five years is that she became an idol but while she loves making music she is also trapped in her past selfs feelings she can write about it in songs but she never fully understands what is the cause of this sadness she cant do anything about it,her body remembers and recalls the pain but her mind cannot recall anything about those feelings Meanwhile Lloyd is fighting with a dragon and his students being stressed he feels loneliness he knows she did bad things to him but his body yearned for her affection he feels confused and is in conflict with himself
it feels like he is also trapped in a past memory/ feeling

*none of these characters are mine*
*merge = a disaster that brought alot of people in danger with merging realms together and a lot of people ended up in a foreign realm some even having no memories*