Limerence. (Phan Au)
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Last published Sat, Nov 7, 2015
The gift of the year eighteen will bring death for Daniel Howell.
12 months, 365 days, 8765.81 hours, 525949 minutes, 31,536,000 seconds.
A bitter jaded young man seeking the taste of death hastily awaits it's grip.
When he meets a young Philip Lester, his loveless infatuation disperses,
Will he learn to love, or will he be eternally bound to the sweet tongue of death?
WARNINGS : ( A lot of mentions of Abuse, Mental illness's, Rape, Death, Murder and Illicit Drug Use)
If you are struggling with mental illness, Contact any number below.
(Australian Numbers)
HEADSPACE: 1800 650 890
KIDS HELPLINE: 1800 55 1800
MINDSPOT CLINIC: 1800 61 44 34
(UK Numbers)
CARELINE: 0845 122 8622
Rape & Sexual Abuse Support Centre: 0808 802 9999
DEPRESSION ALLIANCE: 0845 123 23 20
(US Numbers)
National Youth Crisis Hotline: 1-800-448-4663
National Child Abuse Hotline: 1-800-25-ABUSE
SAFE (Self-Abuse Finally Ends): 1-800-DONT-CUT 1-800-366-8288
(SMUT, BOYXBOY, PHAN.)
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