I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD WHY I AM...
- Reads 2
- Votes 0
- Parts 1
Ongoing<5 mins
Last published Thu, Jun 19, 2025
Author's Note
At first, this text was meant for me alone. I wrote it so I wouldn't forget what I had understood, what I had felt, what I had touched with the tip of my consciousness. I needed to leave a trace. Because once words are written down, they allow us to remember more clearly. And because I know that doubt, forgetfulness, or the noise of the world can sometimes cover everything up.
But the more I wrote, the more I realized how difficult it is to put this kind of reflection into words-and how much this journey requires staying both lucid, honest, and open.
So I thought: maybe others are going through the same questioning. Maybe some people, somewhere, are trying to connect what they deeply feel with what they've been taught. Maybe they, too, are trying to let spirituality, science, intuition, and doubt coexist.
This text does not try to teach a lesson. It doesn't claim to be right. But if it can support a reflection, or express in words what someone hadn't yet been able to say, then it will have meant something beyond me.
All Rights Reserved
#152
consciousness
Join the largest storytelling communityGet personalized story recommendations, save your favourites to your library, and comment and vote to grow your community.
You may also like
Life truly unflitterd
Step inside the mind of someone who's lived it all the highs of love, the depths of addiction, the sting of abuse, the thrill of chaos, and the fragile moments of hope. These poems are more than words.they are survival. Written from scars, soul, and strength, this collection dives headfirst into the beauty and brutality of real life.No sugarcoating. Just truth. If you've ever felt lost, wild, broken, or alive this is for you. Its me on paperComplete
EPIPHANY
"I'm desperately trying to heal myself." •. •. •. •. •. I strongly believe art isn't supposed to be pretty, or liked and understood by the masses. Art is supposed to make you uncomfortable, it's supposed to boggle your mind and touch your heart. And this is what I've done. Most of my words aren't pretty. They are the real ugly truths about the things and people around me. The factors that make me who I am. This is a bringing together of the most intimate tragedies and beauties I've discovered in my mind. A Complication of Poetry. © 2018meditatingineden •Highest Rank• #21 in memoir #60 in growth #22 in contemporary #37 In hidden treasuresComplete
Can I Say Goodbye?
I'm always searching for something worth staying for but I can't seem to find that until then please don't mind me because I'm just a traveler passing through. When I'm not satisfied or happy I'll leave and find a new path, so just let me say goodbye... Can I say goodbye? I wrote till my hands bruised and heart bled. I wrote and wrote in hopes that some day, somebody will understand my words and all the things I wish I could say... Each poem is a story. My story. Some are fictional but most of them are true. I know you're curious. From painful heart breaks to high school stories. A person dealing with mental illnesses, fears and abuse. Won't you like to know about the drama?Complete
Scarred Gem
A tale of fear.
WHEN THE RAIN FORGOT TO FALL
I wrote this because I needed to survive it. Because there are some feelings too big for silence. Some heartbreaks too heavy to carry alone. This isn't fiction. This is my heart, broken open and rearranged into verse. "I saw you standing where the sidewalk curves, and suddenly my chest knew different words." - That's how it started. A glance. A stranger. A feeling I couldn't ignore. "You said we needed to talk. Those five words, I knew. I already knew." - And that's how it ended. Not with fire. With silence. I won't tell you that time heals all wounds. I won't say everything happens for a reason. I won't pretend heartbreak makes you stronger. But I will show you that: You can survive what you think will destroy you. You can break and still become beautiful. You can love someone and lose them and still be whole. You can be your own happy ending. I wrote these poems with tears on my face. I wrote them on good days when I forgot to hurt. Every word is something I actually felt. Every line is a moment I actually lived. "You are not broken. You are breaking open. And that's where the light gets in." - That's what this taught me. That's what I hope it gives you, the comfort of knowing you're not alone.Complete
Invisible Line
For this book, I could never expect many people to read it. But this book could be written by my own experiences. It is full of politic, cultural thinking, or thoughts on value attitude. It may is shown in chaotic ways. Yes, it is right, just like what we think or behave in this world I feel lost sometimes and then be organized, later turn into chaos again. In this time, many of us could miss the classic life style in the past time. But we have to say chaos has become a part of our life especially when invisible lines begin to appear constantly or show more power in this era. The process of writing this book is also the process of author achieve his own peace, admittedly getting peaceful has become the most luxury thing in this increasingly chaotic world. These invisible lines could never give people this. I know these lines will be crossed or stepped by the power of real freedom. At least, the author know that he could never see that happen. But at least one person like me will expose it and give hints for people to find these lines, the power behind them, combat them and succeed finally. Yes, maybe we lose freedom finally no matter we pursue it how hard, at least we achieve it with our full heart. One day when we leave, we could say we may be not the person give the whole light to this world, at least, we have been the person holding the torch to myself and people around me, the reader. Maybe I am not strong enough like the brave ancestors beating those who hiding the truth, making fool of people for keeping their power. But at least, I could stand out for telling the truth. After reading, you may have different understanding of what are these invisible lines. But you know they are indeed existent in your daily life. But I have to tell you they may become more powerful when you realize their existence just like what they do to me. They strengthen their power to people who have been awake.
Message Not delivered...
CAUTION: I DID NOT PUT MATURE ON BUT CONTAINS SENSITIVE TOPICS OF ABUSE INCLUDING S/A... & probaly some swearing. There will be disturbing sh*t in here. This book is a poem book of my life pretty much. Its my thoughts and emotions spoken in a different suppossed to be more emotional and deeper way then just looking at what happened and crying about it. What happened can never be fixed but I won't let those people go by un-noticed and I hope karma sincerely kicks them in more then the ass someday. I don't wish pain upon no one but I do crave for them to just UNDERSTAND what they made me feel since they all walked away without a scrape, just a smirk on all their faces in the end. Or they're narcassistic. Theres also letters to people who I still think of to this day that will probably never read them but you guys still hold a special place in my heart. This book is letters and poetry to all; people of my past, present, future, and not only just SURVIVORS but WARRIORS too. You're never alone my loves... Welcome to : "Message Not Delivered"Complete
The Interesting Book: Deeper Conversation With God
"The Cave You Fear To Enter Hold The Treasure You Seek." Are you someone who believes in something beyond our understanding-a person who says, "There's something out there, but we won't know it until we can"? Who told you that the "right moment" even exists when time itself is a construct created by humans? Honestly, I'd suggest you put this book down and not waste your time, because everyone has their own "right time" to understand what I'm trying to convey here. I recorded myself while talking about things I had never even heard of before as a non religious person with lacking GOD concept. . It was me, yet it felt like an upgraded version of myself guiding me to develop further. This version of me presented an option: What if everything you know, everything you've been, and everything you've labeled could be erased, allowing you to start over and build a completely new sense of self? HER said, "If you're not ready to understand who I am and what I'm trying to say, then 'QUIT.' Because it took immense time, pain, and experience for you to endure and evolve to reach me and sustain this communication." And so, I did. The book you'll be reading is a transcript of the audio I recorded. Interestingly, it resembles a religious text-though, believe me, I didn't intend it to. It just happened. Later, I searched for the first "God word" that corresponded with specific numbers through the transcripts, and I discovered connections to related verses across 12 major global religions, smaller religions, indigenous beliefs, new religious movements, denominations, and sects which you will find them in the book. But here's the truth: everyone is capable of understanding-once they reach the right intellectual and spiritual evolution. I assume you've decided to stay. So, what if I told you that to truly be born into real reality, you must first experience a kind of death?....Complete
Step inside the mind of someone who's lived it all the highs of love, the depths of addiction, the sting of abuse, the thrill of chaos, and the fragile moments of hope. These poems are more than words.they are survival. Written from scars, soul, and strength, this collection dives headfirst into the beauty and brutality of real life.No sugarcoating. Just truth. If you've ever felt lost, wild, broken, or alive this is for you. Its me on paper
More detailsContent Guidelines