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Losing Myself in Eight Years

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BTW: This is a re-write of Nothing Close To Normal that I have recently deleted because it was so poorly written. I hope you enjoy! And also it will have some plot changes so if you've read Nothing Close to Normal I advise you read this! 

Losing Myself in Eight Years is about a dad who left his daughter to go into the military when she was nine. Paityn, his daughter, is now 17 and is graduating high school in a few months without her dad who is still in Iran and has been for the last eight years of her life. While he was gone she lost her personality that was helped created by her dad when she was young. Once he left she became depressed, quiet and alone. 
When she finds out her dad is coming home for the holidays she is super excited until she finds out some heartbreaking news that will change and impact her life forever. How will she react and choose to deal with it for the rest of her life? 

Find out how Paityn will find her personality again in "Losing Myself in Eight Years".All Rights Reserved

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