black out days ✮ bucky

"and we're two sad souls,
desperately pretending that
just for one moment,
everything is fine."

ㅤㅤㅤ꒰ ⋆ ࣪. ━ׄ──ִ──ׁ──ׅ──ׁ──ׅ━ ˖ ࣪ ⭑ ꒱

Most of the others moved on quickly. But Bucky was left behind. His days as the Winter Soldier plagued his nightmares, which didn't end even when he was awake. Whereas the Avengers that were left moved on, his therapist had clicked her tongue and said, "I think you need more support."

His heart drops. "W-what do you mean? Like- a hospital?"

Shrink shakes her head. "No, like group therapy."

That's where he meets her. Mei. A mystery, a ghost girl, someone who thaws the ice in his heart. When he's with her, he can almost forget the way it felt when the electricity ran through his every nerve and dancing through the muscle down to the bone, ripping a scream from his chest; the unbridled fear that tugged at his chest and exploded. Almost. To her, he's just James Smith, a normal guy who has problems and sometimes can't breathe because it feels like Thor's hammer is sitting on his chest and he can't fucking move, can't help but watch as memories flash across his eyes, stained with blood that seeps into the corners and into every somewhat happy moment.

Well. He's not the only one that's hiding secrets.

[ started 05.02.25 ]
[ updated 06.23.25 ]