i don't wanna be me . . . - ☆ wren - Wattpad

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i don't wanna be me . . .

Reads 459
Votes 49
Parts 7
Time 5h 6m

Reads 459
Votes 49
Parts 7
Time 5h 6m

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- 𝙙𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙨𝙥𝙞𝙧𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙘𝙧𝙤𝙨𝙨 𝙨𝙠𝙞𝙣, 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙠 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 . . .

After a staggering loss leaves you sprinting to the solace of a fresh start, you trade a life filled with rumours and self-isolation for something completely anew. An entirely foreign college with the tie of a singular friend ends up warping into a complex web of new and old, that harsh branding seemingly chasing wherever you go.

While fighting to keep a fragile sense of mind afloat, the patchwork of long forgotten and recent relationships mesh into your current. A single group invading every aspect of your life, and for once you're willing to release the reins and follow fate.

What happens when you find a reflection of yourself - an instinct to lash out, sleep-craving eyes, and the hole of a missing part, staring back at you?

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aot college au. slow burn. dark content. explicit topics. 18+All Rights Reserved

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about you | jean kirstein x reader by astroyoons

You were supposed to leave him behind. The boy who challenged you, competed with you, annoyed you to your very core, until he didn't. Jean Kirstein, your academic rival, your almost-friend, your first love... and the person you left without saying goodbye. You thought distance would make it easier. That burying yourself in ambition, in grief, in survival, would make you forget. But nothing could quite erase the burn he left on your skin, or the look he gave you the night everything fell apart. Now you're back in Paradis. Just for a few months, just long enough to fulfill a promise, to see your friends again, to pretend that the past doesn't hurt anymore. But fate has other plans. Because the first time you see him again... he's not standing. He's broken, quiet, older...and yet everything you once loved still lingers in his eyes. From academic enemies to something impossibly tender and undone, this is a slow-burn story about growing up, losing everything, and finding your way back to the person who always felt like home. "Do you think I have forgotten about you?"

𝐅𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐞 | 𝐑𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐫 𝐁. by perfectly_m1saligned

𝐖𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐠𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐧, 𝐰𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐞? .·͙*̩̩͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩̥͙　✩　*̩̩̥͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩͙‧͙ . Ripped away from him, trapped in the cage of a relationship that to any outsider would look like heaven, but stepping into his arms had shown you anything but. You think he hates you, he thinks you hate him, and God, does he hate himself. You used to know him like the back of your hand, now you look at each other like you're strangers. But even amidst the hardest of battles against his own reflection, Reiner will prove himself to be a warrior through and through, no matter what the price to pay will be. .·͙*̩̩͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩̥͙　✩　*̩̩̥͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩͙‧͙ . 𝗥𝗲𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝘅 𝗳𝗲𝗺!𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝟭𝟴+ 𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗴𝗲 𝗮𝘂 𝟭𝘀𝘁 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗣𝗢𝗩 This work of fiction will explore themes intended for an 18+ audience, reader's discretion is advised. cover art creds: jean.marcos.no1babe on TikTok

Under the dorm lights || E.Jaeger by estyy_

Four hours from home, Y/N arrives at Paradis University looking for a fresh start. New dorm, new classes, new life. But Paradis isn't as simple as it seems. There's Jean-the easygoing upperclassman who's far too charming for his own good. And then there's Eren-the sharp-eyed stranger who seems to know exactly how to get under her skin. Between late-night parties, whispered tensions, and rivalries she doesn't understand, Y/N quickly realizes that starting over won't be easy. At Paradis, everyone has history... and now, she's becoming part of it. ‼️ WARNING ‼️ This fanfic contains talks of drug use, alcohol use, suicide, and (most importantly) sex.

Quiero Sentirme Bien (FemReader x AOT) by sailorkelloggs

✩•̩̩͙*˚＊＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊＊*•̩̩͙✩ (Eren x Fem.Reader x Levi) Quiero Sentirme Bien - I want to feel good 𝐅𝐞𝐦 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 ❥︎𝐦𝐨𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧 𝐚𝐮 ❥︎𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭 LOVE TRIANGLE I just want to feel something... - Y/N Y/N was a new 18 y/o girl in town, an honor student on campus who has a crush on Levi Ackerman. She gets invited to a party to have fun and gets involved with the infamous fuck boy, Eren Yeager. Everything gets a little crazy. Inspired by HBO show: Euphoria (Everyone is between the ages of 18-25! Eren is 20 y/o. Levi is 21 y/o) 🛑 Please read 🛑 ⚠️ This read has the following ⚠️ HEAVY SMUT, Possessiveness, Drug Use/Abuse, Alcohol Use/Abuse, Overdose, Depression, Explicit Language, Forms of Toxic Masculinity, Homophobic Comments (I am pansexual. I do not support homophobia), Dark Themes, and much more but I will put them in the chapter if it is not listed here!! ~𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐣𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐲𝐚𝐦𝐚~ I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE AOT CHARACTERS! I DO NOT OWN THE PLOT OF EUPHORIA! I DO NOT OWN ANY PHOTOS UNLESS I SAY IT'S MY OWN! I DO NOT OWN ANY MUSIC TOO! Rankings: #1 - AOT MODERN 06/16/21 #1 - Erenxyn 07/18/21 #2 - Levixreaderxeren 07/18/21 #6 - ErenxReaderxLevi 07/06/21 #4- Drug Addiction 06/29/21 #6 - Levixyn 07/18/21

𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚 | | eren jaeger by noirwell

"𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙞𝙡𝙚, 𝙞'𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚. 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩'𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮 𝙥𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙙." ▶︎ •၊၊||၊|။|||| | [eren x fem reader] in a world where everything is viewed by you as pointless and gray, where everyone walks through you like a shadow of invisibility, you don't see the point of what life can be. your past and present haunts you with every moment you breathe, wake, and sleep. you crave solitude and connection all at once, but you know you'll never receive either. hopeless, wanting, longing, illicitly. so what happens when the boy who returns to paradis to attend your university, notices you in a way that you hadn't thought about being seen before, and wants to show you that there's more to everything than just the bleak and shuddering familiarity you've always known. all the while carrying a soul buried beneath its own unspoken wreckage. two people, roaming the living world with halves of a restless heart, aching to become whole again. will either of you make it out of the blur of the silent and pounding torment, and reach for the light of new beginnings- or will everything remain the same, no matter how much you dream? note: warning for when reading. DARK. CONTENT. there are lots of triggering topics (chapters always include warnings). a slow-burn? i post every 10 to 17 days. also, long chapters. good rankings <3: #1 - radiohead 8/9/25 (& 11/8/25)

do i wanna know? [ERENxF.READER] by ianhecoxluvsu

You're a comfortable girl. You like your solitude and enjoy your own company very much. You became close over the past couple of months with Mikasa Ackerman, who has a completely separate life and friend group aside from just hanging out with you humbly and alone. When she finally convinces you to attend your first college party to meet her friends and have fun, you reluctantly agree for the sake of her not asking again. You meet a great group of people but someone in particular leaves a...Odd impression on you. [I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS] [AOT college AU] [ART WORKS DO NOT BELONG TO ME. CREDIT TO ALL ARTISTS!]

nights like this, jean kirstein by -YEAGERS

𝐈𝐍 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐂𝐇 . . . sophomore year of college holds things you never thought the universe would choose you to experience. you find yourself strolling this long and winding road without the one person who was supposed to guide you through everything, but with your chosen family-- a group of loud-mouthed friends who wouldn't dare let you lose yourself again. Though, a new-found face with a troubled past has made his way into your life, and your friend group, and the constant weight of heavy baggage on his shoulders makes him hard to get to-- all he has to do is warm up to the idea of being loved.

jealousy; armin arlert by arminslittlewhoreuwu

𝙎𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙞𝙘𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙪𝙥 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙨, 𝙪𝙣𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙘𝙤𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙡𝙮. 𝙎𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢, 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨 𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣'𝙩 𝙧𝙚𝙜𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜. 𝙄𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙙. 𝙎𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙚𝙡𝙩 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙜𝙖𝙯𝙚 𝙖𝙨 𝙨𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙙𝙤𝙬𝙣, 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙚𝙧, 𝙤𝙧 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙞𝙩 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣? 𝙎𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙪𝙥, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙛𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙮 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙙𝙮𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙨 𝙖𝙨 𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙡, 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙘𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙚 𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙗𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝. ☁︎︎☁︎︎☁︎︎☁︎︎☁︎︎ 𝙼𝚘𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚗 𝙰𝚄 𝙰𝚝𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚘𝚗 𝚃𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚗/𝚂𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚔𝚒 𝙽𝚘 𝙺𝚢𝚘𝚓𝚒𝚗 Armin x Fem Reader 𝚆𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 ⌫ 𝙰𝚕𝚌𝚘𝚑𝚘𝚕 𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝙼𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚞𝚊𝚐𝚎 𝙼𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚜𝚌𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚜 (This was my first story, so if you're reading this, hello! It's not the best, but still cute it you want a short feel-good story!)

𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲, 𝐛𝐚𝐦𝐛𝐢 by jaegersmoon

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