Till has always been a gentle and emotionally grounded boy, trying to navigate friendship and love in an unsteady boat all by himself.
At school, students called him "Creepy Till". He lived in his own world, lost in his love for art and psychology, and often forgot to exist anywhere else. He never learned how to make friends, every interaction he had was awkward, every attempt to connect clumsy and uncertain.
He had a lot of fears : attention, crowds, but the biggest of all tortured him in his sleep. Till suffered from recurring nightmares since middle school.
When a new student joined his class and sat beside him, Till realized that the boy whose gaze haunted his every nights truly existed, that he was more than a product of his imagination.
Ivan entered his life suddenly, like a storm. He was everything Till wasn't: magnetic, confrontational, and impossible to ignore. He was unpredictable, impossible to read, his behavior was erratic, he seemed to both despise and need Till at the same time.
Raised in a household where love and hate were indistinguishable, he was left with a warped sense of intimacy. The quiet rejection that Till gave him was unbearable and made him remember his lowest moments. He couldn't stand the way he looked at him and avoided him. That's why he decided that, if he was going to be hated anyway, he might as well earn it.
What begins as a series of misunderstandings, lies and deliberate cruelty, soon reveals something else beneath: a desperate longing to be seen, to be loved, and to heal.
This is a story about love distorted by pain, about two boys trying to bound from broken pieces.
Over time, Till's quiet empathy begins to reach the wounded child buried inside Ivan. And for the first time, the raven haired boy realized that hatred isn't the same as love, and that what's truly his doesn't need to be marked in order to be real.
The cover is a fanart made by @Dutd on red note ( ID:Dutdtilkhdkgd )
(JockEmo AU)
Till is used to being invisible-the emo outcast who lurks in the back of class, headphones in, ignored by everyone except for whispers and ridicule. Ivan, on the other hand, is everything Till isn't: the golden boy, the flawless jock with a smile that wins the crowd every time. They're enemies by nature, always clashing, always pushing each other's buttons.
So when a twist of fate (and some meddling from Mizi) forces them into a fake relationship, it feels like a cruel joke. Till wants nothing to do with Ivan's perfect mask. Ivan, however, has been obsessed with Till for years-and now he has the perfect excuse to keep him close.
What begins as a plan to shut down rumors and survive the college spotlight slowly unravels into something neither of them expected. Between whispered fights in crowded hallways, stolen glances in study sessions, and the blurring line between acting and something painfully real, Till starts to wonder if Ivan's smile has always been fake... or if it's only real when it's directed at him.
Enemies. Pretenders. Lovers in denial.
This isn't just a game anymore-
and neither of them is ready for the fallout.