Addicted: Here and Thereafter
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Last published Mon, Jan 5, 2026
You were my first sin... and my only salvation. -Johnny
🔥 Yu Huang (John) - Alpha. Dominant. Possessive. Now a CEO with global power, he once controlled love the same way he ruled people-until he broke the only man who ever mattered.
🌊 Zhou Xu - Kind. Brilliant. Level-headed. A trauma therapist who rebuilt his life after heartbreak, but one man still lingers in his wounds-and now he's back.
Ten years ago, their love was reckless, consuming, and cruel.
Now, as trauma, silence, and time collide, they meet again-not as boys, but as men.
Can love survive what it once destroyed?
💔 Inspired by the banned 2016 Chinese BL drama "Addicted" and the original novel by Chai Jidan.
⚠️ Content Warning: Addresses past emotional and sexual trauma with a trauma-informed lens. This story does not romanticize abuse.
Author's Note:
As a romance author, LGBTQ+ advocate, trauma survivor, and someone with an academic background in Psychology and Law, Addicted deeply moved me. Its themes of forbidden love and unresolved pain mirrored my own journey of identity, acceptance, and healing.
Addicted: Here and Thereafter is not a continuation, but a reimagined and original tribute-written with empathy, growth, and consent at its core. The character names, plot, and emotional arcs are entirely my own.
I do not claim ownership of Chai Jidan's work. I encourage readers to explore the original Addicted first. This story is a new beginning-where love becomes not addiction, but recovery.
With love and gratitude,
InvisibleMash
All Rights Reserved
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