My name is Jordan, but I was born with the name Jessica.
Yes, I may look like a girl, but I know I'm not. I know I was born in the wrong body. No, it is not a phase just cause I'm only 14. I've know since I was 5 when I saw I didn't like what every other liked, but instead I like what boys seem to like.
I am not sexually attracted with boys, no, I like girls. That doesn't make me gay cause if I'm a boy, I'm supposed to like girls.
There's this one girl that I've had a crush on since 7th grade. Her name is Taylor, but how could she love or even like someone who is transgender?
My mother is a single mother who has me and my older brother Ricky who is 16.
She treats my brother and I very different. I get verbally abused by her because I'd rather wear big shirts, jeans, jackets, converse, and play violet games rather than where make-up, dresses, skirts, and have long flowing hair.
Yeah, when I cut my hair last year, my mom got really pissed at me for not asking her first.
My brother accepts me for who I am, but my mother not so much. She wants me to be this little perfect girl she always wanted.
Without being said, this is about Jordan, and not Jessica.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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