Animal I've Become
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Last published Sun, Jul 27, 2025
Bucky has come home. He's changed. He's broken, both mentally and physically, but he can't let Steve know just how much of the war he brought home. He doesn't want Steve to see that he isn't the same boyfriend as he was before he left. Only Sam knows the truth. But how long before Steve sees all of the new Bucky?
This story contains:
panic attacks, PTSD, memories and descriptions of war, hostage/torture discussion, depression struggles, minor character death, and a brief mention of cancer. Also, yes, there is sexual content.
Please consider you're own mental health before reading this
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