does this ever end.?
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Last published Sun, Jul 27, 2025
She left in the middle of the night without saying goodbye.
No plan, no goodbye, no one even knew she was gone until it was too late.
Just her, a packed bag, and the guilt of leaving her two little siblings behind.
Now she's starting over at Paradis State University.
New city. New people. New version of herself.
She's just trying to forget everything she had to walk away from.
She didn't think she'd make friends.
She didn't think she'd laugh again.
And she definitely didn't think she'd end up stuck between two people who make her feel like she's losing control.
But feelings don't ask for permission.
And neither does the past.
Because no matter how far she runs,
some things always find a way back
༄.° CW: this story contains, violence , domestic violence , drugs , sex , Content warnings will be listed at the top of each chapter when necessary.
༄.° 18+
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