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My name is Claire and I'm a Divorce kid. I guess its a real thing but it isn't all I am. I'm a girl, I'm a near university graduate and I am a suicide attempt survivor. Thats where people linger I guess...the me trying to kill myself bit but I think they have their priorities wrong. Firstly because its my life and I'm allowed to do the hell I want and secondly because I think I deserve it.
I really think everyone should make less of a deal of what happened than they do and noone can honestly say they didn't see what happened in the end coming. Sure I looked a lot better but I'm not the only one who was not okay to begin with and I guess if you asked me I cant really blame anyone but myself and maybe mom...and right now if you ask me what I'd have done differently or what I'll do differently I guess I'd say I'm going to live and yes I get the irony in that. In all of it.
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