The untold story of us

M U S L I M S T O R Y

December 21, 2021
What is crush?
What is crush? And Love?

For my 6 years of crush for this guy, I never consider my feelings for him as love. Why? Because we never talk or interact as lovers of even has a label. He is just my crush but for a long time.

I've been having this crush journey for him that has no closure. We had a lot of small talks as relatives and colleagues, but for me it was one in a millions. I treasured all of our small moments together.

I will give the details of our "small moments" together in the following pages.

Now I wonder if my feelings for him was just a crush? I really wonder because as I grow up, I realize that having a crush for 6 years might be too long and maybe developed? As love.....

This crush actually inspired me a lot. When I was in my first year college. He's my inspiration to study harder as he was a consistent dean's lister. So brainy. So I thought I will be like him too so he can recognize me. But my brain has limit. I'm not that gifted, I'm just an average girl with dreams.

I never regret having a crush on him because it brings me happiness and inspiration. It helps me in my hardest time, just a thought of him gives me dopamine.

The only regret that I thought now is I never confess directly to him. Such a huge mistake, Maybe destiny would be with me if I did. Maybe it will change a bit if I did. Maybe something will happened if I did. Only if I.

But Destiny has better plan.

We we're not meant to be. And that's the best for us. I am now signing off as your ultimate tagapaghanga.

Thank you so much kuya B.
Kung may reincarnation man, sana tayo naman ang paboran ng tadhana.