Hate You, Still Love You
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"I don't even know if I'm mad at you... or at myself for still caring."
When Emily (22) walks into Claudia Sulewski's birthday party, the last person she expects to see is Billie Eilish - the girl she once loved and the reason she hasn't written a real song since they were seventeen. Billie looks different now: brown hair, storm-blue eyes, and a gaze so cold it could burn.
They haven't spoken in five years.
They were once everything to each other - best friends turned almost lovers - but something tore them apart before either of them had the guts to say how they really felt. Now, surrounded by mutual friends, reckless parties, intense games, and late-night confessions, Emily and Billie are forced back into each other's orbit.
Billie pretends she hates her. Emily pretends she's moved on.
But the truth?
They're still in love - and neither of them knows how to handle it.
Jealousy burns. Memories return. And in the chaos of rooftop nights, secret glances, and dangerously honest dares, the past and present begin to collide.
This is not a reunion. This is unfinished business
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