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The Fear was Love Itself

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Parts 17
Time 2h 9m

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North was never meant to let anyone in.

Born with the ability to see the exact moment someone will die, he did spent his life in fear - not of death, but of love.
Because loving someone has always meant watching them go.

And there was Johan.
The only one who has made North feel safe enough to almost believe in something more.

But he died.
Right in front of North and he never saw it coming.
When Johan miraculously comes back to life, North sees nothing.
No time, no ending, no glimpse of fate.

And that terrifies him more than death ever did.

Because in the end,
it was never death that haunted him.
The fear was love itself.All Rights Reserved

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Before the Last Vow (Johan x North) by orked97

These are purely fanfiction and I do not own the series or characters. This is a characters from the original book How Much is Your Love by Howlsairy. **************************************************** As North prepares for his wedding with Johan, tragedy strikes-Johan is killed in a sudden accident. But North wakes up three years in the past, determined to save him. Armed with knowledge of the future, he searches for every clue: the accident, the perpetrator, threatening messages, and even Johan's past relationships. Yet as he works in secret, something unexpected happens-Johan begins to fall in love with him, far earlier than he ever did, complicating North's mission to rewrite fate while navigating a love that's blooming too soon. Can North rewrite fate and save Johan before it's too late?

The weight of a whisper by Nabitales2025

From the day they met, Johan and North were inseparable. They were the kind of best friends who shared everything-secrets, dreams, and a bond that felt unbreakable. But as they grew, so did North's feelings, transforming into a love he had to keep hidden. He watched as Johan, a boy who only saw him as a friend, fell for a girl named Iris. Heartbroken, North left, hoping distance would heal the ache. But after two years apart, fate throws them back together, forcing them to confront the unspoken truths and buried feelings that had always existed between them.

My fault (m-preg) by oniirosie

North and Johan were deeply in love and on the verge of getting married. But just moments before the ceremony, North's joy came to a sudden halt. Without explanation, he abandoned the wedding and vanished from Johan's life-carrying with him a secret he refused to share. Devastated and blaming himself, Johan searched relentlessly for North, but every trail led to nothing. Just when Johan had nearly accepted that North was lost to him forever, fate intervened. Their paths crossed once more-and this time, Johan was determined not to let North slip away again. _______ Top rankings 🥇 #1 johannorth #1 maxkybas #1 foureveryou #1 bas #1 hilleaster

The Heart's Compass 2: To North, Always. by MaxxieHope

"Even when the world gets loud, love knows how to speak softly." A year after their slowburn relationship, Johan and North are no longer just two people drawn together by chance-they're each other's favorite constant. Johan, now a fourth-year medical student, is stepping into the fast-paced world of clinical rotations, chasing his dream of becoming a surgeon with unwavering focus. North, meanwhile, is thriving still as the Powerhouse Council President, leading with heart, innovation, and his signature easygoing charm. Life is busier than ever. Their days are packed with responsibilities, meetings, hospital rounds, and endless deadlines. But love? Love has found its rhythm in the quiet moments-the late-night video calls, the surprise visits, the comforting words towards each other, and the simple fact that no matter how far apart they are during the day, they always find their way back to each other. In this next chapter of their journey, Johan and North learn that love doesn't have to be loud or grand to be real. Sometimes, it's in the way Johan remembers North's favorite after a long shift. Or how North cheers Johan, just to feel closer when they're apart. Their matching rings were the symbol of their never-ending love for each other. To North, Always is a soft, heartwarming continuation of The Heart's Compass-a celebration of love that adapts, strengthens, and stays steady, even when life gets busy. Because some hearts don't just fall in love. They grow in it.

DARE by oniirosie

North is the kind of person one might easily mistake for an angel. But as the saying goes, never judge a book by its cover. Beneath that angelic facade lies a mischievous spirit who thrives on attention. North is a natural flirt, effortlessly magnetic, and he rarely resists the thrill of a challenge-especially when it comes wrapped in the form of a daring game. He doesn't shy away from risks; in fact, he welcomes them with a smirk and a glint of recklessness in his eyes. Johan, on the other hand, is the complete antithesis. His very presence commands silence; a single glare from him can make even the boldest person falter. He is the embodiment of intensity-gruff, intimidating, and perpetually on edge. There's a dangerous allure about him, the kind that warns you to stay away even as it dares you to come closer. Johan is not the type of person one typically challenges-but for someone like North, that only makes him all the more irresistible. 🚫 Do not copy or replicate my work 🚫

The Heart's Compass 3: Through Time, Through Us. by MaxxieHope

Johan is now focus on clinical experience, with rotations on a private hospital in London after spending 4 years in college. After proposing to North, and hearing that beautiful "yes," his world feels steadier, even as the days grow heavier. Meanwhile, North, in his final year of Electrical Engineering, is stepping into the next chapter of his life. Between balancing his academic internship and handling Powerhouse Council, North faces his own kind of pressure-growing, letting go, and chasing a future he once only imagined. Their lives are busier than ever. Schedules don't align like they used to. Time feels shorter, and distance creeps in. But love, the kind they built slowly and fiercely, continues to guide them through. Through different paths, through long nights and quiet mornings, through everything. This is the story of two young men who found each other-and are now learning how to hold on, not despite the storm, but because of it. A story of commitment, ambition, and choosing each other again and again- through time, through change... through us.

In Another Life by Nabitales2025

Johan Chalawit - the campus heartthrob, the notorious playboy, and the richest of them all. He has everything - looks that stop hearts, money that bends the world, and power that makes people kneel. But even a man who has everything doesn't always get what he truly desires. Johan would tear down empires, crush mountains, and set forests ablaze for him... But the cruel twist of fate? He belongs to someone else. North Natchanan - charming, goofy, and hardworking. He came from a modest life, built everything with his own hands, and was loved by everyone who met him. But the one he loved the most? His girlfriend. To her, he gave his heart fully, fearlessly. He was hers. He came too late. Time had already chosen its path. And North - vibrant, untouchable North - was never his to begin with. But love doesn't ask for permission, and Johan... Johan would carry his heart, quietly, eternally, even if it was never held in return

Endless Vow of Love by Nabitales2025

The heavy door clicked shut, the sound echoing in the sudden silence of the grand room. North was gone. Johan stood frozen, the harsh words still ringing in his ears, a cruel symphony of rejection. "I never wanted this marriage... I will never love you... My heart belongs to someone else... to me, you're nothing." Each phrase was a fresh stab, twisting in the wound of his already aching heart. He'd known, deep down. He'd seen the way North's eyes never quite met his, the subtle flinches, the distant politeness that felt colder than outright hostility. But to hear it articulated so starkly, so brutally, stripped away any lingering illusions. This wasn't a misunderstanding or a temporary dislike. This was an absolute, unequivocal declaration of no love, no future, no hope. The lavish room, meant to be a symbol of their new life, now felt like a gilded cage. Every opulent detail, from the heavy drapes to the intricate carvings on the mantelpiece, seemed to mock his one-sided devotion. He was a husband in name, but in North's eyes, he was less than a stranger-a nothing

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Before the Last Vow (Johan x North)

These are purely fanfiction and I do not own the series or characters. This is a characters from the original book How Much is Your Love by Howlsairy. **************************************************** As North prepares for his wedding with Johan, tragedy strikes-Johan is killed in a sudden accident. But North wakes up three years in the past, determined to save him. Armed with knowledge of the future, he searches for every clue: the accident, the perpetrator, threatening messages, and even Johan's past relationships. Yet as he works in secret, something unexpected happens-Johan begins to fall in love with him, far earlier than he ever did, complicating North's mission to rewrite fate while navigating a love that's blooming too soon. Can North rewrite fate and save Johan before it's too late?