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Barely Existing

Zoe_L_Barely_Exists

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Zoe_L_Barely_Exists

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This is the life of a depressed idiot. Who doesn't think to highly of herself. Boring. I know. Just the thoughts of a self harming moron.
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My name is Zöe not Zoe. Wattpad didn't let me spell it that way. *glares at screen* this is my story so enjoy. (Triggers and I know I don't deserve to be depressed.All Rights Reserved

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Adam's life has never been his own. Raised under the shadow of a cold, domineering father, he was forced into a life of violence at a young age. Trained to be ruthless and taught that power is the only currency that matters, Adam's existence has always been about survival. Beneath the hardened exterior, though, lies the weight of deep emotional scars-ones that even time hasn't been able to heal. Just as Adam begins to unravel under the pressure of his past, an unexpected event sends his life spiralling out of control. Everything he thought he knew is shattered, and the fragile balance he maintained between survival and self-destruction crumbles. Struggling with the aftermath, Adam's world turns upside down, forcing him to confront the ghosts of his past and the dark path he's been set on. Driven by the overwhelming need to reclaim his sense of self, Adam decides to target the one thing that has always held him back, his father's empire. But revenge comes at a cost, and as Adam teeters on the edge of despair, he must decide whether destroying his father's legacy will free him or finally push him over the brink. (Guys this is my first story and first time writing on wattpad and uhh I did my best. I started this story in English class and am developing on it rn since I rlly like it lol so uhh don't judge. Have fun and thank you) This story will contain the following: - Abuse - Suicide - Violence - Killing (And uhh i might forget the rest so I'm really sorryy)

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The Weight of Shadows

Adam's life has never been his own. Raised under the shadow of a cold, domineering father, he was forced into a life of violence at a young age. Trained to be ruthless and taught that power is the only currency that matters, Adam's existence has always been about survival. Beneath the hardened exterior, though, lies the weight of deep emotional scars-ones that even time hasn't been able to heal. Just as Adam begins to unravel under the pressure of his past, an unexpected event sends his life spiralling out of control. Everything he thought he knew is shattered, and the fragile balance he maintained between survival and self-destruction crumbles. Struggling with the aftermath, Adam's world turns upside down, forcing him to confront the ghosts of his past and the dark path he's been set on. Driven by the overwhelming need to reclaim his sense of self, Adam decides to target the one thing that has always held him back, his father's empire. But revenge comes at a cost, and as Adam teeters on the edge of despair, he must decide whether destroying his father's legacy will free him or finally push him over the brink. (Guys this is my first story and first time writing on wattpad and uhh I did my best. I started this story in English class and am developing on it rn since I rlly like it lol so uhh don't judge. Have fun and thank you) This story will contain the following: - Abuse - Suicide - Violence - Killing (And uhh i might forget the rest so I'm really sorryy)