the bends
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Last published Wed, Sep 3, 2025
life is grief. life is pain. they are everything else.
A slow, queer, literary story about friendship, longing, and the quiet ache of staying alive after loss.
Told in fragments. Told in breath. Told in all the words they never say out loud.
©2025 NICHOLAS BROWN
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