The silk threads of the hanamachi were already fraying by 1903. The whispers of the past, once carried on the wind through perfectly manicured gardens, now competed with the clatter of new machinery, the distant rumble of trains, and the brash clamor of Western ideas. Japan, a nation in a furious sprint towards an imperial future, began to forget the delicate steps of its own ghost-haunted past.
Yet, some echoes lingered. They clung to the old wood of ancient okiya, settled in the dust of forgotten storerooms, and nestled in the eyes of those who had lived long enough to remember a different world. It was in these quiet, overlooked spaces that the line between what was seen and what was felt grew dangerously thin.
They say spirits, the yokai and the yurei, are born of strong emotions: fear, anger, love, and most potently, sorrow. As the old ways withered under the relentless sun of progress, a profound, collective sadness settled over the land. It was the grief of rituals abandoned, of beliefs dismissed, of sacred spaces defiled. And this sorrow, like a deep, still pool, began to stir.
This is how I found peace after being misunderstood. This is what happens when the noise goes away and I can hear my own voice again.
These poems came from times when I wasn't sure of myself, when I had to learn to let go, and when I had to learn to believe in myself. They are about taking my time to heal, being careful with love, and finding strength in the quiet places. It's not about being broken. It's about what you need to do to rebuild myself when the world keeps telling me that I don't deserve to be who I am,
Themes: healing, survival, false blame, emotional abuse, self-forgiveness, resilience, and rebirth.