Originally: A Journal I'll Probably Abandon.
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Last published Mon, Aug 25, 2025
'Originally' is the raw, unfiltered journal of a boy trying to make sense of himself through a 5-page speech he never finished, a crush he wasn't supposed to have, and a life he's not sure he wants to keep living.
This isn't a love story and it definitely isn't a mystery.
This is about surviving when you feel like you're not meant to.
This is a boy who is finally realising maybe he's not alone.
Messy, personal, confusing and painfully funny. This is what it means to fight for your story, even when you don't believe you deserve one.
Trigger Warnings: mental health themes, suicidal ideation, sexuality confusion, emotional distress, grief, strong language, suicidal tendencies, eating disorders, homophobia, bullying, graphic (at times), self-harm.
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