The Internal Fight
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Have you ever felt like wanting to die but, you know you can't end your own life because you'll hurt the people around you? Thats how I feel every single day having that internal fight within yourself only a few people can see it the people your close with the people you've known for a long time. My name is Amy and your about to learn about my entire life, well not my ENTIRE life you know what I mean. You'll also learn about why I decided to end the misery with just a small razor blade.
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Amy Anderson lived her live with the idea that you should trust no one but you. When she gets dismissed by her own brother that he fights his own demons., she swears to help him out. only that he doesn't need her help against the most dangerous man ,Blade . so she gets herself involved into this mess while she learn that the family love is not just an illusion but a reality and while the the blood makes you related, loyalty makes you family.
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