Why Even Bother

Why bother trying to have friends cause it seems like all the people I try to be nice to back fires on me. I'm so sick of people being fake like one minute there my friend the next minute were fighting ; just please be real for once in your life don't act like your my friend and then talk about me because it hurts me to have to tell you our friendship is over . If you wanted to be my friend then why did you try to fight my why did you talk about me behind my back and then you want to mean mug me then you want to talk to me and say your sorry why even bother cause it's to late you had a special friend place in my heart and what you did to me I don't think that place in my heart will ever open up for you again. Its hard not being your friend because I miss you but I know if I'm your friend again everything I went through will happen all over again and if I'm your friend then there's no reason for me to be writing this because I'll be one of the fake people .