When I Strayed ,God Remained
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This is not a perfect story.
It's a story of me letting go but God holding on.
It's about the nights I wanted to end my life, but somehow, God kept me alive.
It's about the times I sinned and thought I could ask for forgiveness like it was just a casual thing but God showed me what true repentance means.
It's about the moments I doubted if God was even real, yet He was quietly watching over me the whole time.
God told me to stop living with one foot in the world and one foot in Him.
He told me to choose a path, because you can't serve two masters.
He told me to stop pretending and be true to myself and to Him.
This story is raw. It's not sugar-coated.
But if you've ever felt like you're too far gone, like you've messed up too much for God to care this is for you.
Because when I strayed, God remained.
He's the reason I'm still here. And He's not letting go of you either.
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