Empty of Emotion

They say you should feel things
But I don't feel emotions and pain
That I understand the concept but not how it works and why it doesn't for me
They say I'm sick that there's something wrong with me.
But I know they wrong i know i used to feel emotion.
I remember once when I was a small girl that I did feel something. It was when Eddie fell down the well at his grandparents estate. He wouldn't answer when I called down to him. That was the last emotion I felt and if it's like that I don't understand why people want to feel that kind of thing
And I thought that because the one and only thing I felt was

Fear