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Six Years Ago...

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18andup memoir memory substanceabuse

This is a personal memoir about a very sensitive time in my life. 
This story deals with very heavy topics such as SA, CSA, Substance abuse, animal abuse, child neglect, dysfunctional family dynamics and bullying. 
If you are easily upset by or triggered by any of the above mentioned topics, I highly advise that you turn away now and do not read this book. 
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In 2019 I was in 7th grade. If i could remember the days in chronological order leading up to this stupidity, I would recall them to give you some context but here is the cold hard truth; I don't. 
The lack of perfect memory of the events leading up to the doomsday of "him" will actually work in my favor in painting the perfect melancholic and disgusting picture of what truly happened. 

There was no warning or debrief when it happened. There will be no warning or debrief in the retelling. 

This is a story with no happy ending, no neutral beginning and no lesson learned. 
No amount of justification or sugar coating can change the effect of what he has done to me. 
This is just what it is.All Rights Reserved

18andup memoir memory substanceabuse

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