a look into my thoughts
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this is a collection of my vents. although this might not be a long story. this is my story, how i feel. this is an outlet for me; and now, let me give you my story, thoughts, and feelings...who knows? maybe it might help someone to know that some other stranger in the world is feeling the same as them.
trigger warning: talks suicide, self-harm, morbid thoughts, self-hate, degrading thoughts, mentions of blood, knives. if any of this makes you feel uncomfortable, please do not force yourself to read this. please stop reading whenever you want to.
also, please do not reach out asking if i need help, i appreciate it. but, i am getting my own help in my own way.
thank you for reading <3
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