"BEFORE I PUT THE PEN DOWN ".
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Last published Wed, Aug 13, 2025
Before I Put the Pen Down is the haunting diary of a former school topper whose life unravels under the weight of teenage trauma and relentless parental pressure. Through raw, intimate entries, she reveals the silent battles behind her perfect grades - the loneliness, the fear of failure, and the longing for unconditional love. With each page, her voice grows heavier, leading to a heartbreaking end that delivers a universal warning to parents everywhere: a child's heart is worth more than their report card.
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